AN EXPERIENCE I WOULD NEVER FORGET!!!

Experience i'd never forget.

It's long but please read to the end..

It started when I was in primary school...primary 4 to be precise..I was a typical teachers'  favorite.

Guess it's because I was kind of like on the bright side then..a whiz kid..hmm..

Teachers in school would always call me to either help mark their pupil's scripts or help record grades for them...i'd always do it with all happiness.

Then there was this teacher...our headmaster.
..a self acclaimed pastor..Thinking of him now
 and everything he did, makes me wonder  why people who aren't called by God, say they are pastors..

Now, this is how it started..he called me to his office the very first day(usually we would go to a class, where he'd show me what to do, maybe record grades or something) but that day, we
 met at his office..

I got in and he closed the windows immediately..i could tell he was getting tensed..like something was about to happen..he was sweating and I was worried..then he locked all the doors and went to his chair. 

He told me to sit and I did while he pretended to be busy..to be all caught up in his work and for a moment I suspected he had forgotten I was there... then.. he looked at me and said..

"Nne, come and stay by my side".

I don't think I heard him well, then he repeated it..

"Come over to this side, let me tell you something".

I obliged. It was my headmaster afterall..i went to meet him..that's when he looked me over..

"You know you're my baby..come and sit on my lap, let me hold you a little"..

I was soo confused..but shrugged it off, seeing it as nothing..since normally I sit on people's laps,dad, mum,uncles and everybody..

But as soon as I sat on his lap, he lost control...his hand went all over my body, he
started rubbing against me..his breathing got very heavy and thick...I could feel something beneath throbbing and trying to push against me..I wanted to get up, yet he pushed me down on him..hmm...I wanted to cry.. he continued jerking and saying incoherent things..the one I could hear like,"how are you my dear?you are good girl you know?" (questions he had asked
before, admist heavy breathing), I could only answer..

Then he stopped jerking suddenly and told me to stand up. And go to my class immediately...yes he said that with a strict tone in his voice..

I did so with immediate effect! 

I was so confused, scared..didn't understand
what had just transpired..wanted to tell someone but there was no one to tell..

Finally I shared with my classmate, she told me I was imagining things..that maybe I wasn't sure..then she said if it continued, I should tell my parents..

But what she knows is that there was nothing wrong with sitting on someone's lap. Besides
he's a pastor. 

For me, I knew something wasn't right about it, not with the jerking and touching all around me..

We didn't even have a name to call it then..was so annoying!

And alas! It continued! He'd start by calling and when I refused to answer, he'll send a younger
 pupil to call me..that I should come to his office or face the consequences..LOL primary school girl, I had no choice but to go! He'd do same thing over and over.when I complain or ask him why he always wants me to sit on his lap, he'd shout and say I should shut up, I knew nothing!

One time when someone knocked at the door, he pushed me and I nearly hit my leg on a chair..

It was all bizarre for me! I left to my class feeling so bad.

I was a little bit depressed! Very angry as well..Our teacher(pastor) warned me not to tell anyone or he'd deny me totally...that I should know we are doing nothing. so there's no need telling anyone..

It continued till I got into primary 5..i started reading books..so many books..i started becoming aware of myself..my sexuality(that early right?)i got to understand what he was doing was wrong..

I hated him...with burning passion!!!

Seeing him annoyed me..whenever he comes to teach in class,i'd never pay attention...he disgusted me!

The worst is when he preached to us during assembly..my eyes would always be open!!!!! I was never comfortable.

 As time went on and his ugly act continued, I
 told my sister about it, she didn't know what to make out of my story.. she asked why I didn't see it as normal..why it looked like a big deal to me. That maybe it was nothing as well...she didn't totally believe me..and that was my fear  Then she told mummy..

Mehn! Mummy took it differently..she wanted to run mad!! She got so pissed that she felt wouldn't be able to control herself anymore..She regretted not noticing the way I had changed..my mood swings and all..she was sorry she didn't have such 'talks' with me on time...she believed me and the next day, she was in school...

Weeks after that, it was discovered that I wasn't the only one that our headmaster misbehaved with...

There were so many...even pupils in primary one..

He was a child pervert!! Gained pleasure being with little ones...He was queried, sacked and parents finished him..that was the end of him in  that school..

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The reason for this story is to reach out to all and sundry. Be careful and watch your little loved ones..there are so many crazy people in this world..they'll do stuff and threaten them to keep it a secret!

Please If you are a parent reading this,i urge you all to learn from my story...listen to your children, watch their every move..teach them to know themselves and beware of people who are out to spoil them..could be teachers, uncles, family friends, cousins, housegirls/boys and every damn person!

Looking back now, I know that our pastor teacher needs prayers..because I heard he'd been arrested several times for the same offense...

If you are have little ones, engage them in conversations, let them find you a good 
confidant..so they can share things like this with you on time, then you'll do something before it's too late...

Love y'all!

Xoxo